8/23/11
I’m listening to John Mayer bust out some Why Georgia as I am sitting down to write this post. Aside from this being my favorite song of his, it seems fitting that the moment my fingers began pressing keys his voice sang “I wonder sometimes about the outcome…am I living it right?” - the “it” obviously referring to life. If you were sitting with me currently you’d be subject to my pathetic attempt at singing a duet with Mr. Mayer (with my retainers slurring my speech), and I would also be sharing with you that I do believe I am living “it” right.
I truly appreciate all of the comments on this blog, emails, posts on Facebook, IMs on Skype from my family and friends. Not a day goes by that I don’t feel loved and supported. The love, support, and encouragement all of you send me, even when you don’t express it outwardly, is felt and continues to provide me with all the strength I need to live this new life in South Africa. I am a very self-aware woman, and I will be the first to admit that I am as emotional as they come. Many of you probably never thought I’d actually move 8,000 miles away – Hell, I never thought I’d actually do it! J But here I am. I figured at this point in my journey I’d have bought out the local Woolworths of Kleenex, but to my surprise, I am adjusting very well.
Do not let this confidence and optimism fool you; I am missing the US, New Hampshire, HOME immensely. Not a day goes by that I don’t wish Lori was with me, Teq was trying to bite me as I left my parents’ house, I was on the beach playing frisbee with the crew, driving my CR-V (on the right side of the road), seeing the kids grow up, or making dinner with the ladies at Girl’s Night. However, my life has taken a new turn, and as difficult as it is to leave my comfort zone at home, I find myself here in JoBurg: living in my two bedroom apartment with locks on every door, driving a used white Jetta (on the left side of the road with my purse in the trunk), trying to catch Lori every chance I get on Skype, soaking up every conversation with mum and dad, taking pictures of wild African animals, teaching children who have traveled to more places in the world than I ever will, meeting new friends who will never replace the old but certainly add to my life, eating dinner with Chelsea while watching Grey’s Anatomy episodes on my computer, and becoming a better person because of it all.
My new friend Evelyn said to me the other day, as I was getting frustrated about the fact that the South African customs is holding hostage a box mum and dad sent me, “We have to remember – we aren’t in America any more. We are in a whole new country. This is Africa.” I get frustrated sometimes about not being able to leave my windows open in the house, locking my purse in the trunk while I’m driving, paying exorbitant fines to customs for ridiculous reasons, the persistent men and women who shove flyers and goods at you while you are stopped at a red robot (traffic light!), or the milk that goes bad in three days because there is no pasteurization. But, then I remind myself that if I didn’t want change – I shouldn’t have packed up and moved to the other side of the world. “This is Africa.”
In about 7 hours, I will have officially been in this country for one month. I have bought a car and grown comfortable sitting on the right side of it, begun to make a home, spent nearly 18,000 Rand, not had a single Diet Coke, taught - for nearly two full weeks - children from 10 different nationalities, and seen my very first lion, zebra, giraffe, cheetah, hyena, and springbok from the unsteady perch atop a Segway. I miss my family with every breath I take. I miss my friends and the peace and comfort they bring to my life. I miss my home and feeling a sense of belonging there. BUT – This is Africa. I’m in Africa.
I, Mandy Akerley - super emotional, wear my heart on my sleeve, homebody Akerley - am living on my own among new faces, new challenges, new everything…and I am truly enjoying it all. I am happy. I am definitely living “it” right.